& HER STORY GOES..
A fool.
Sunday, November 28, 2010 ( 11:38 AM )
Have you ever love and lost somebody? Have you ever felt the trust he had in you is a lot but actually its totally wishful thinking? Have you ever been holding a dream of you and him for years but he knew it was totally crap right from the start yet kept it from you? Have you ever cried so hard that you felt as though you're turning blind? Have you ever felt the pain deep in your heart is so serious that you thought you'll die any moment soon?
Little did I know that this would hurt so much. I was like totally drained out last night, dripped more than ten drops of eyes moisturizers and still feels so dry and pain while I felt so thirsty that I almost stay up whole night.. So now I know that shedding has a lot of after effect than what I knew.. & this was my first time get so dehydrated, can you imagine it's worst than after running 2.4km?
Sigh, I felt so stupid to actually can't-let-go this relationship at first. But after knowing the truth, I know it's a must to let go & be what my mum said, 心放硬一点.. After this great blow, I should be thankful that these have let me see the fact that there's so many peeps around me that truly cares. & so what if I really lost him? For me, I've lost someone who don't trust/love me. For him, he've lost someone who loves him so deeply that she gave it all out to him. So who have made big loss now?
Well, I'd like to thank "X" for turning up so suddenly after knowing I wasn't ok. So sudden that I thought "X" was just kidding.. Though I can't really ease the pain, but I really did feel so much better after talking to you last night.. Thanks for your time & sorry for causing you to take half day or rather half night off..
Mum fetched me to work today, and of course she asked about it. After confessing to her what exactly happened, I couldn't stop all those stupid sheddings.. but I'm sure to make that the last. Hey great friends out there! I'm thankful to have you all here with me! Here's my promise on letting my eyes suffer nomore! Joycelyn would definitely recover soon! (:
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